Reminder

I wonder how can u know everything, all the lies and yet you don't tell me? I'm worried bout you, bottling up all your feelings. It is not good for you. I wish you can just tell me your feelings, whether it's good or bad.

I would prefer you to show your feelings, open up your hearts a bit for me to see the true you. For now I've seen the good side of you but not your worse side. Let me see your worse side for once dear. Just once.  Let me accept your worse as I accept your good side.

Dear P,

I'm leaving you behind and I'm not ready to tell you I'm going away. Away from this relationship. I need to clear off my mind and think carefully bout this relationship. I thought you were different but guess I'm wrong. I'm not perfect and neither do you but I'm totally taken aback with what you've done. I'm sure you will find someone better than me. Don't worry..we were never in relationship from the beginning. Let's be friend will you?

Dear heart,

This is brain talking. Please be strong and not easily fall with someone's hearts.  For once, do listen to me. Be rationale and let go all the feelings you still have for your exes. They are not yours anymore. Move on from your past because they surely do. There's nothing there except for memories and pain. Your space is almost full with all the memories the pain the feelings. Do get rid of them. Start anew. I will always be there for you. Your friends will always be there for you. Don't feel like you alone cause you never alone. Be strong and keep beating. I'm so proud of you, beating strongly even after all the heartbreaks and tears.

p/s: counting days.. and I'm getting scared to leave this place.